Open thread; me

[xDBD]

IM NOT MAKING THE PICS WORK, IF YOU LOVE ME ENOUGH TO SEE ME.. COPY AND PASTE THE LINKS. F'IN IMAGESHACK

*warning, confessions ITT. Lies converted,[n' hopefully forgiven] drug use talked upon, slight vulgar language, etc

This thread is about me. The last major thread I made (the one that banned me, and rightfully so.... I admit fault (for oce..) That made me seem like an idiot and without a doubt, rightfully so.

Before I start this essay let mesay this: Pamela, Mike, Fuggle, whoever else found my last thread offensive, it was not the intention. I signed it, as can be read, "Beast Mode. Beast Mode Clinton."

I figured this would be the, and I mean THE giveaway of my thread. People that know me also know that I do everything in excess: Sex, work, D2.. and drugs and alcohol. That night, this past Saturday, my school's team (sorry Arkansas-ians) beat Arkansas for the SEC championship. Henceforth; I partied. Hard. Massive beer and ********* consumption (atleast a 12pack in 3 hours..) and two more substances that contributed to the insanity:

Alprazolam (Xanax) and Cocaine. Xanax, for those of you ignorant, removes all fears, inhibitions, morals, and social restraints. You do anything and you don't care what ANYONE thinks. Most of the time you black out. I was blacked out writing that post. The cocaine, a stimulant, was the only thing keeping my posts coherent. (***, beer, and xanax all act as downers to my veteran body)

The post started off as a 'bash' because there were SO many threads in Flame Wars on the same topic (look.. they all could be discussed in one or two different threads.) As I rambled on, the drugs took control. The thread, now that I can read it sober....it means nothing. No point at all. The title makes no damn sense either. It started with a purpose, but as that night and that whole day really has slipped my mind.. I have no clue what it was.

On to me. I have lied various times online (all the time, actually.) I think it's more than obvious sometimes; I go out to party but i'm ALWAYS back by midnight or one at the latest. College student behavior? Hardly. Most of my friends, when I tell you guys their ages, are under 18 or right at it, rarely over 21. Clue?

No. I am not twenty, I am seventeen. I attend Santa Fe High School and I also dual enroll at the University of Florida to get started on my dream degree: Certified Organic Chemist, which also leads to medical research, chemical[particularly the mental active kinds], etc.

How many of you find this a shock? Probably only the core people I have gamed with (digitalis, shift, streetsoldier, etc.) Pam knew i'm sure. I assure you: Everything else I do, including drugs, girls, stories, etc.. it's all true. The age is the only variable.

The age thing started years ago on AOL. I thought it was "cool," to be 3 years older than I really was. I was in an AOL chatroom called 'dragonballz,' 'dbz,' and 'pokemon.' Yes, I was a nerd for both of these shows. Problem: 15 year olds don't wanna chill with a 12 year old (yeah, I was terrorizing you **** since the Windows 98 launch). So I became 15, and before long, I aged 3 years ahead of myself online. It just stuck.

I do play guitar, I do love music [all kinds] and for those of you who actively game with me, I am not gay. I am sexually active w/ females(not at the MOMENT, but has been/plan to be.) I just don't have a GF at the moment and I really don't believe in uncommited sex (again, a contridiction of myself?)

Everything in this post IS true, but I won't blame you if most of you don't believe it. I consider myself a pretty good liar online (aren't we all, seriously?) Again, I emphasize all the posts that seem 'serious,' on here are really me; a view into the man behind the screen. Speaking of this man behind the screen, here is me in all seventeen years of glory (and inebriation of all kinds):

http://img225.imageshack.us/my.php?image=1123060149eq9.jpg
This is the town logo; I'm from High Springs, but both High Springs and Alachua are suburbs of the area pride: Gainesville. The inverted 'peace,' sign means "Peace up, A-Town down." I would have did the dual finger motion but I cellphone'd it.

PS i'm naked in that pic[seriously, but i'm ugly so I kept it clean]

http://img392.imageshack.us/my.php?image=1206062025tc8.jpg
As seen, I am clearly tanked. That is Beast Mode Clinton. Beast Mode Clinton of the night of the thread. I hope that justifies some of that stupidity[that I genuinely regret expressing.]

If the two above images don't work, let me know. Also, my myspace is www.myspace.com/g2ct


What made me tell all you idiots this? I was talking to a friend of mine, RJ. He said.. "bro, I live today. I live for tomorrow. Don't regret the past and don't be ashamed of shit, ever. Tomorrow IS a new day and you're the only one that should care about your business. Only you and those who you want to know."

It made me realize that there is no point in lying online or in real life anymore; I have nothing to be ashamed of.

All the "idiot," and "****," I said toward you guys are just how I talk. Now that you guys know more about me, I hope you understand me more. This thread is sort of an apology to those I've made mad, but it's not a letter of change or recognition. Simply put; it's just an open thread revealing stuff I haven't told my internet friends (yeah, I consider some of you friends, despite not knowing you IRL. I spend too much time with you **** not too : .)

This is me and I no longer care if any of you don't like it. Take it or leave it, baby. I have no regrets with my life no longer. I'm happy with me, you don't have to be. I enjoy friends but I don't beg for them.

That said, thanks. If you read all this, it's a must that you add me on myspace.

Peace, love, happiness, and harmony. Live yours and yours alone.

signed,
xDBD/Clinton/Mr. Beast Mode/forum asshole.


btw, I bet all of you read this. Only the cool ones will say tl;dr and mean it. I love you all. I am so stoned.

By the way, one last thing. This is the last edit i'm gonna make to this book.. if I insult you, i'm not insulting you. I'm insulting your words and probably how you phrased them. You (the subjective you) have not angered me; I just talk in a rude, sarcastic way. Again, that's a take it or leave it thing.

*All contents in this thread are claimed to be true, but they may not be because I'm a habitual online liar. The pics are me and everything is true [honestly, i'm just high]


COPY AND PASTE THE PICS

[Foog]

i love you

[ArrogantlyIgnorant]

word life

you're still the coolest person to talk to online clint

[xDBD]

i love you too

[streetsoldier707]

<3 Clint, Beast mode @ it's ****ing best boys. Keeping it real (-.^).

Btw, accept me on myspace =P

[Tool]

I love you too, Foog.

[Pamela]

I know you hun and still have your phone number.Kristin still plays with the game systems I bought from you. I love who you are for exactly THAT ...it is who you are.
Goofy,funny,outrageouse,intelligent.slightly odd and somewhat askew at times.

I love you nonetheless. You are unique and vastly interesting,don't change.
Just my 2 cents.

[DaCougarMech]

besides the age and the look, you're still the same person
nothing changes that

[Pamela]

Before I start this essay let mesay this: Pamela, Mike, Fuggle, whoever else found my last thread offensive, it was not the intention. I signed it, as can be read, "Beast Mode. Beast Mode Clinton."

Dude I still cant make pictures work here.I am successful about 50% of the time.

[Mathalamus]

im sucessful like 90%

my spelling sucks ass tho

[Fuggle]

Haha, Nothing offends me Clint. Maybe I'll make a myspace one day and add all these people.

[SilverTears]

Before I start this essay let mesay this: Pamela, Mike, Fuggle, whoever else found my last thread offensive, it was not the intention. I signed it, as can be read, "Beast Mode. Beast Mode Clinton."

Dude I still cant make pictures work here.I am successful about 50% of the time.

Lol im going to have to make a tutorial with pictures for you.

[Z3R0]

I really don't know you, nor have I seen the thread in question. Why do you do so many drugs though?

[Snipz]

Clint I love you!

[xDBD]

I really don't know you, nor have I seen the thread in question. Why do you do so many drugs though?

because i personally choose to live how i want too

[Blue]

where is the thread that got you banned, i am interested to see what you said that got u banned, for like a couple days

[xDBD]

the one i created in flame wars which is now closed.
i thought it was funny but i guess people don't have my shitty sense of humor

[Shift]

where is the thread that got you banned, i am interested to see what you said that got u banned, for like a couple days

http://www.blizzsector.co/steam-room...l-remarks.html

[Z3R0]

because i personally choose to live how i want too

Don't we all. But basicly I am interseted in knowing what part of a ruined life devoted to achohol, drugs, and possibly a premature death intrigues you?

[xDBD]

Don't we all. But basicly I am interseted in knowing what part of a ruined life devoted to achohol, drugs, and possibly a premature death intrigues you?

i don't view my life as ruined by drugs or alcohol and (don't they all say this?) i know my limits and i know exactly what I take. normally i'm just a bud smoker but sometimes i do go off the scales (like the night described) and let loose totally. when it's not herb, it's almost always a single drug or a combo of a single drug and herb.

i know what I do is detrimental to my health and I accept that. i enjoy the lifestyle i lead and i believe the consequences from my party days (which probably won't last forever, it rarely ever does for anyone) are worth the good times and great memories given to me by them.

basically, i'm being nice about saying what I normally would, had this not been my nice thread:

i don't give a flying fuck what you think about my life. i'm happy with it.

i'm alive today and i live for tomorrow. i'm almost sorry you don't agree with how I live my life

I know you hun and still have your phone number.Kristin still plays with the game systems I bought from you. I love who you are for exactly THAT ...it is who you are.
Goofy,funny,outrageouse,intelligent.slightly odd and somewhat askew at times.

I love you nonetheless. You are unique and vastly interesting,don't change.
Just my 2 cents.

and you make the most random assed comments ever. i'm NOT this guy