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06-28-2006, 02:45 AM
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things are finally doing good for me.
i'm not moaning; not at all. i'm just happy and stating it. it's pretty much like this: i'm (or, rather, i was instead of i am) pretty ****ed mentally. i have a very heavy case of shyness and paranoia and have since I can remember. I know the root of it but only one person online really knows it (infinite/wes) and i'm not gonna go into it.
but, things are looking up. i've been through ****ed up shit with my friends, and i'm finally starting to think i've got a best friend i can trust and who would never lie or hurt me intentionally. socially, i'm doing way better than I ever have and i'm feeling so good.
as the name implies, i like to party. i used to get really out of it and make everything feel like a dream and nothing was real when I smoked (i have been for 6 years almost daily and i'm just now getting it.) it was really awkward and almost not worth it, but i did it because my friends did.
i got drunk, stoned, and took something last night and felt normal. i was me.. just high and drunk. which was the best thing ever. i'm eyeballin a girl who's into me for who i am, hair and music tastes in all. she's gorgeous and legal.
it's like, things are finally going for me. what's ****ed up is things always have been for me. my mind just ****ed it up, somewhere between my asshole brother, ****ed up family life, and my overdose a while ago. i honestly believe i'm finally coming back to me. me and wes talked about it, and he put it best. when big tragic things happen to you, parts you just leave. they're starting to come back
call this a free post or spam or whatever, but i'm slightly high and feeling better than i ever have in my life. i feel normal.
cheers everyone. you only live once; we're all alive.. make the best of it.
peace
signed,
clint/xd/shroomy/zsd
aaaand, i posted this same message on all my boards i post on a lot. if it sounds choppy or strange, it's cuz i was originally talking to a specific group, just didn't wanna retype it. i'm all opiated 
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Quote:she's gorgeous and legal.
LOL
Good for you Clint bro.
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yeah, i had a fling with an underage emo/goth a year ago or so. was a big mistake, lol. i hurt her feelings pretty bad.
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06-28-2006, 03:21 AM
(This post was last modified: 06-28-2006, 03:22 AM by streetsoldier707.)
u sound like a ****ing scumbag honestly, u cant get girls ur own age, and u blame everything on ur family problems, stfu, everyone has their own ****ing trials and tribulations, stop complaining about it, and stop thinking that your "overdoses" and "opiated" states will make u feel any better, it ****ing makes u look like a goddamn scumbag, im just surprised no ****in authority figure saw what u just typed above. ur post just pissed me off
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06-28-2006, 03:29 AM
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cya later.
you don't know me and you didn't have to post. you don't know what i've been through and you don't know what my situation was like.
megan was 17 and i was 19. two year difference. but she was illegal at the time, and she turned 18 three months after i was done with her.
wanna keep talking?
aaaaand, her mom loved me. in florida, she could have consented to legal sex but we never had sex. i don't post details in public of myself because of ****s like you, but w/e
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streetsoldier707 Wrote:u sound like a ****ing scumbag honestly, u cant get girls ur own age, and u blame everything on ur family problems, stfu, everyone has their own ****ing trials and tribulations, stop complaining about it, and stop thinking that your "overdoses" and "opiated" states will make u feel any better, it ****ing makes u look like a goddamn scumbag, im just surprised no ****in authority figure saw what u just typed above. ur post just pissed me off
just to fight you a little more,
i went to drug therapy after my overdose. i never got drug therapy; i got pee tested and sent to another shrink who delt with mental instabilities. i lasted 2 months with her before she told me she didn't know what to do. or how to do what needed to be done, which never got determined.
i broke my own shell and was feeling good. thanks bro, joke or not you ruined it.. almost.
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streetsoldier707 Wrote:u sound like a ****ing scumbag honestly, u cant get girls ur own age, and u blame everything on ur family problems, stfu, everyone has their own ****ing trials and tribulations, stop complaining about it, and stop thinking that your "overdoses" and "opiated" states will make u feel any better, it ****ing makes u look like a goddamn scumbag, im just surprised no ****in authority figure saw what u just typed above. ur post just pissed me off
LOL ****in e-thuggin at it's best. GG kid, GG indeed.
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I can see where you are coming from. I had something of a similar experience, though I never have gotten into drugs as heavily as you, I was a horrible debtor and managed to amass quite a bit of debt becuase of my irresponsibilty
I guess my wakeup call was getting a call from a lawyer representing one of my creditors and threatening legal action.
But lately I have been doing well, making payments. Its like if you work very hard to improve the your worst aspect, everything will improve as a result.
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glad your lives are going well
might not be the worst thing that can happen to me but this girl i like who used to like me just told me that she doesnt "like me that way"
i'm ****ing pissed off at myself because when she had a crush on me, i never realized it or acted on it and she lost interest in me just before i gained interest in her. she was smart, funny, and fun to hang out with and it sounds cliche but i'm never going to find another girl like her again.
sorry if this brings you guys down but i am just so depressed by this
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lmao, i got somethign in my eye
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Glad to hear things are finally straightening out, man.
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Glad things are goin' good for you, however life in a nut shell.
Grow up, pay taxes and die.
We just have to find the fun inbetween it.
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go ahead, keep talking dbd, i think the mother's a ****in backdoor redneck first off, (living in florida WHAT A FCUCKIN SHOCKER??) and should be thrown in jail too, and **** you, and **** whoever wants to warn me, if u support people crying and bitching over a ****ing PHP FORUM, then by all means, do waht you want. Get some "real-world" freinds while your at it. And while im at it....You telling me , that you went to Drug Therapy...and yadi yadi yada, and all the bs about going to a shrink,,,i hate to tell u, but ur an even bigger ****sucker , if ur STILL doing drugs and geting high and drunk , then u pretty much wasted 2 months of ur life to absolutely nothing, so dont even bother telling me that u went to rehab and to a shrink, cuz ur still doing the same shit, and saying how happy go ****ing lucky you are that you still do, i hold to my word, ur still a scumbag. Wanna keep going????
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if he parties a lot he probably has a lot of "real world friends". i can see why you think xDBD is bitching, but youre the one sitting there bitching about his bitchiness. so stop.
why are you calling him a ****sucker thats just plain immature. im sure he doesnt suck ****
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streetsoldier please just leave this thread and never come back. ok? we don't need any flaming. thread would have been a lot better without you. hm? going to say i'm a ****sucker too for defending him? like i said do us a favor and don't post shit like that again. ok you a s s h o l e?
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From most of street's posts I've deduced he's a very angry little person
Just relax man, get a grip.
Quote:glad your lives are going well
might not be the worst thing that can happen to me but this girl i like who used to like me just told me that she doesnt "like me that way"
i'm ****ing pissed off at myself because when she had a crush on me, i never realized it or acted on it and she lost interest in me just before i gained interest in her. she was smart, funny, and fun to hang out with and it sounds cliche but i'm never going to find another girl like her again.
sorry if this brings you guys down but i am just so depressed by this
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Aaaah, the one that got away. I know just what you mean. I've always been attracted to a friend of mine but was always too timid to make a move. I'm actually seeing her this weekend, she's in town..... To pick up her boyfriend from t he airport.
There's nothing more frusterating then being the 'safe' guy friend.
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06-28-2006, 03:29 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-07-2006, 03:16 PM by Mathalamus.)
hmm ya know i used to have a heavy case of shyness on my grade 7 cause i was mainly warlike and mean but as i went to grade 8 i became a peaceful and nice person and i had friends but they rejected me...and they became mean really mean
*update* i am losing the war and im looking at surrender by september 6th... if peace CANNOT be reached then there is no hope and i shall withdraw from everywhere...confused:
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a lot of the shit you went through / going through is similar to me.. minus the drugs. i'm pretty shy guy in person and things with family aren't too great. but glad to hear things working out for you 
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yea man glad to hear thing are working out, thats awesome, i too had drug problems and also had to go into drug therapy....still smokeing the reefer tho....but hey what can you do i love the shit. neway congrats man, oh and streetsoldier...im just not going to say nething there, get my ass banned if i even start to express my feeling about you, you stupid bitch
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@That flaming guy
He didn't say anything about the girl's age.
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